I Love You Jamie

I have contemplated starting a blog for a long time, I just never found the time to do it. I thought that it would be neat to post pics and info about my children, my husband and I, so that our large family across the country would know how things were going for us and what was going on in our lives.
I recently lost a very special loved one, and have had a hard time dealing with this. So, I have decided to write in the hopes that it will help me as I try to heal, understand and come to terms with his death. I think that it will be interesting to document and reflect on the changes in my life and heart for the duration of this blog.
I feel so much pain and sadness now, but my eyes and heart are still focused on God and I know that He will get us all through this pain. So this is to you Jamie, you finally made me take the time to sit down and start this blog.
I love you, I miss you little brother, my heart aches so often because of losing you, my memories of us growing up flood and comfort me at times, I don't understand why, I feel so angry at times, I wish I had more time to tell you that I loved you and all of the great things about you, I hope that you felt no pain, It's been 13 days, I am shaken to the core, I know that you are with Louise, I still remember your smiling face from the last time that I saw you in August, I still cannot believe that this is real, I will help make sure that your mom is okay, you are gone too too soon, life will never be the same for any of us, this pain feels so unbearable at times, functioning day to day seems so much harder now, you will never be forgotten, I know that you would not want me to stay sad, I know that I will see you again and I am glad, I LOVE YOU JAMIE.
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