Bag Lady

I was looking in the mirror today. I keep wondering when these bags and dark circles under my eyes will go away. Erykah Badu's song "Bag Lady" keeps running through my head. One of my friends told me that it was the bruising of the muscles around the eye and that it will fade with time, particularly as I stop crying so much and rubbing my eyes. When she told me that, I realized that these circles and bags may never go away, because when will I ever stop crying over this situation? It feels like never, but maybe there will be a day when the tears don't come so easily, uncontrollably, and quickly. Sometimes, when I am at work or busy during the day and thoughts of Jamie are not consuming me, I feel almost normal again. Then I pass by a mirror, see my face, the years that have been put on in the last 2 weeks, the bags and dark circles, and I remember. And the tears and pain come back to me. And the Bag Lady I remain. Love you J.
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